One of the reasons I like to come here, even after losses, is to share the frustration this team brings with people who feel it too. So, after a night of less sleep than usual (it's clear baseball means too much to me, I know), I was thinking about the toughest losses to take as a Brewer fan. I don't bring this up to rain negativity on the team. More to acknowledge the pain out loud so that when the World Series title does arrive, and it will, it will have something concrete to stand in glorious contrast to. I started following the Brewers in 1998, when I was about 12 and they had just moved to the NL. I listened to the games on 580 WKTY, and Fernando Vina was my favorite player. I've divided this list into playoffs and regular season because we all know playoff baseball is a special kind of heartbreaking. Playoffs: 1) Game 5. 2011 NLCS. Jerry Hairston was a good pick up for that club. Yet, the image I'm stuck with is him booting a ground ball and sort of just knowing the series was over. We had Greinke on the mound after Wolf stole one in Game 4, and I believed, like really believed, the Brewers would have to win game at Miller to play in a World Series. No such luck. 2) Game 6. 2011 NLCS. This one had a more resigned feel, probably because of how early and how often the Cardinals lit up the scoreboard, but I remember playing out the string, feeling like I had to listen to Ueck, and then staring vacantly off into space in the only apartment I ever lived in completely by myself for about two hours. Maybe the TV was on, I don't remember. I refuse to say if there were tears. 3) Game 1. 2008 NLDS. I thought Hart was going to come through to tie it. He didn't. 4) Game 4. 2008 NLDS. Check swings, CC, and just not being good enough yet. This one wasn't as bad because I thought the best days were still to come, but the last out stung. Regular Season: There are many games on this list, last night included. But I wanted to just mention my own personal (least) favorite. 1) July 3rd, 2008. The Brewers had a 5-0 lead on the Diamondbacks going into the bottom of the ninth. Three pitchers (Mota, Shouse, and Torres) then combined to give up six straight run without record an out. I was listening on the radio on a long solo car trip. I'm pretty sure it finished in complete silence. Nominees from this year: The Padres game where Sogard gave us the lead in extras and then the Padres made his daughter cry, Torres and the Dodgers, the last two nights, the balk game against the Twins. I am now going to balance this out with a post in the optimism thread.