I feel for you. I really do. Your fandom seems like it has turned to misery. I can only hope it gets better. I've been a fan of the Crew as long as you and we share a similar memory of 1982. We never sniffed success like this in the Kohl era. Not even remotely. We essentially had the one EC Finals run and that was it. If you can't accept the method by which the Brewers do things, you're going to live a fan life of perpetual disappointment. You choose 'reality' because this is the reality you choose to see. And, as you can also see, that reality is seen different across Brewers fandom. It's not right. It's not wrong. But, man, the way you're seeing things is a really hard fan burden to bear! There is a lot to be grateful for even if they aren't doing things the way you'd like and, under this ownership and management, likely never will.