I think if the Brewers had lost to any other team, I would appreciate what they did this season. But because they lost to St. Louis in such embarrasing fashion, I am extremely bitter and angry. This has been very difficult for me. This was supposed to be one of the greatest seasons in Brewers history, and instead they were eliminated by the hated Cardinals. It is the most horrible ending ever. I still feel like St. Louis had no business being in the postseason considering how far back they were heading into September. Since they barely got in, I always felt they are not as deserving of moving on. I feel very cheated. I understand that our starting pitchers did not do well, but neither did theirs. It almost feels like LaRussa did something sneaky and under-handed by overusing his bullpen and not paying a price for it. Yes, I know they followed the rules, but it was so unconventional that it did not even feel like real baseball. For all of my life, you needed quality starting pitching to get through October, but the one year the Brewers get in to the NLCS, the Cardinals somehow manage to change the rules. I don't get how they got away with it. I can't understand why Shaun Marcum turned into a disaster when it mattered the most. I can't understand how Zack Greinke did not even get one strikeout. I can't understand why we never pitched inside and backed off more of their hitters. I can't understand why Ron Roenicke did not figure out what LaRussa was doing and start showing more urgency himself in pulling struggling starters. He was asleep in the dugout. It always felt like we were behind in the first inning all the time and I don't know why this had to happen in October when it never happened all the other months of the season. Nothing about this series ever felt normal and it did not in anyway seem representative of real baseball and what we saw this season. It was just too bizarre and disturbing to accept. I can't understand how the Cardinals beat us in 1982. Their lineup was a joke. I can't understand how a franchise that won only 83 games in 2006 ended up with a ring. We had a better regular season than St. Louis this year with nothing to show for. I can't understand how the Braves blew such a big lead. I can't understand how their closer Kimbrel started blowing saves to let the Cardinals in at the last minute. I was very excited when Prince Fielder hit the big homerun in the All-Star Game. Now I will forever feel sick about that moment because our own player gave the hated Cardinals home field advantage. The whole memory of that moment is now ruined. I am mad that Nyjer Morgan started tweeting about the Cardinals. That brought us bad luck and now makes us look foolish. The wrong team now gets the last laugh, I hate Tony LaRussa with a passion and it makes me sick that he is going to the World Series again. I hate that Cardinals fans are so spoiled too. 18 pennants already. Why can't we ever get one too. Why do the sports gods hate us so much? I don't understand why there isn't more anger amongst the Brewers players. Their reactions and statements to the media were very disappointing. Nothing makes any sense to me right now. Nothing at all. Sorry if I have issues right now.