I’m pessimistic by nature. I just am. I fear the worst. It’s how I’m wired. I’d love to flip a switch and be like a couple of the other posters. I truly would. I’ve tried like hell to be more optimistic but I go back to my default settings. Like everyone else, I want this so damn bad but I’ve seen so many big heartbreaking losses I just can’t help but think we blew our shot tonight. Yes that might be crazy and over the top but it’s just who I am.