Barring a Mets/Brewers lose/lose or win/win occurring I know the following: I will feel an emotion one way or another that I have not felt in my entire life. I don't know how either will feel, not even close. The Brewers are what I have, no one else. Not the Packers, Bucks, Badgers, High School teams, or any other team, nothing. Today will change the feeling of every game I have ever been to in my entire life. The 150 or so, all in a new light I have seen this team do a lot sitting at that ball park, the good, 5 home runs in one inning on my birthday, Ben Sheets opening day 2007, Wes Obermueller going perfect thru 6 1/3, Sabathiamania on his debut, catching a JJ Hardy home run ball, Russel Branyan PH HR against Minnesota, Mother's Day and Father's Day Walk Offs, Braun grand-slam walk off. I would not mind one bit if these events lost a little bit of shine tomorrow. I have sat thru the bad as well, Adam Dunn crushing one to the Dew Deck, Cubs owning us this July, 8/8/07 9th inning collapse against the Philies, Watching Zambrano throw a no-no in my park as I watch the Crew get swept on the TV in the concession stand, 4/6/07 Bush getting touched up for 6 in the first against the Cubs, I sat thru every inning and told myself I had to see the bad, had to feel the pain, to make it that much sweeter, to really appreciate what was to come. A lifetime of bad memories could melt quite a bit today, in just a few short hours. I will be there today section 235/row 7/seat 17, head up, watching, cheering, hoping.