I figure the best thing to do is man up and state my mind about the pitching situation. I don't think if I had pitched yesterday it would have turned a loss into a win. That team was just flat out a far cry better than us. However, I kind of feel it's a waste not to have me pitch for the little time I'm here. Looking back I thought game experience would be important for those who pitch after I'm gone. But then again I had no game experience in two years leading up to game 1 of this year. My prep came by practicing. In the weeks leading up to our season I would go to a nearby softaball diamond and throw pitch after pitch, getting my feel. I had the idea that an inning or two at the end of a game would be a good taste for someone. Either way, I think those who intend to pitch for this team should spend a little time on the side practicing, just as I did. It just seems kind of strange to have me not pitch at all during one of the few games I'm here. I came to the park last night thinking I was pitching and then I don't even pitch one inning. In all honesty I think that's a waste. Yesterday is over with, but I am still here for one more week. And I think it would be foolish not to utilize me at pitcher. After this week I'll be gone and there still will be 5 games left for anyone who wants to replace me to get plenty of action of the mound. A whole half season remains after I'm gone. Meaning that I will play not a second more than one half of a season. I plan on bringing my best effort next week and I vow to come to the game prepared focused and determined. I'm treating this game as the last game I'll be able to play for a while, because that's exactly what it is. I want what's best for the team both on a next game basis and after I'm gone. I just think that whoever pitches after I'm gone, that their success will have much more to do with practicing on their own, than anything they'd get out of an inning or two thrown to the wolves before they've had a chance to prepare. If the team decides not to have me pitch, I will accept that. Remember, if that is the case, it will mean that I pitched only 3 games. What started out as me being here for 7 out of 10 games has turned into me being here for only 5 because of rainouts. To wind up pitching just 3 games seems silly.