I know that I'm supposed to have a positive, upbeat feeling about the year. We were waaaay better than planned. The team finished ten games above .500. We had many players take another step (Nelson, Anderson, Knebel, Shaw, Santana), go to another level in their development. Plus, these are players we have control of for a few more seasons. Late season add ons did well, from our ol favorite Jeffress to Swarzak, Walker, and Voight. The underdog team was fun to watch nightly, playing in close games while enjoying each other's presence with demonstrative cheering celebrations. Much fun. I went to ten games, and win or lose had fun with family and friends. Love Brewers baseball and all that. Yet, I have very little positive feeling for this season. The negatives way outweigh the positives. They probably shouldn't, but they do. I have no desire to watch the playoffs. I don't want to see the games, not even seeing the Cubs lose. It just stinks. We should have been in the playoffs. We were up 5 and a half games at the break. Did any other team give up that big of a lead this season? We gave away too many games, giving up more leads than anyone in baseball. We couldn't score late. We could barely make contact or foul balls off in innings 7 thru 9. How many 1,2, 3 innings did we have in innings 7 thru 9? For as great as the offense was in the first half of the year, it was that awful in the 2nd half. Everyone in baseball scored more than us after the All Star break. And that is with our best minor leaguers up and Neil Walker playing. We have our best player in Braun talking about how much he hates Spring Training, how it is too long, how the best at bat is a double play lineout. It makes me question and wonder about the patience and commitment of the team when tight games get long and a walk is as good as a hit, when we are trying to hit the ball out the park when a grounder to short gets the run home. Are they bored? Want the individual chest bump moment? Simply want to get home? I don't even want to get into the strikeouts, but back to back years setting the K total in the entire history of baseball? Spanning over 100 years? The math is too boggling for me. It doesn't take a great mathematician to see that we strike out too much and that big swing and miss teams have a tough time making contact against good pitching, especially late in season (and playoffs). And while I am venting, the team keeps trying to make itself look good with attendance. Now, I have been to games for many years, and usually get to around a dozen a year. No year has the attendance numbers been more inflated. None. I'm sitting at a game with maybe 20 to 21 thousand fans, and the reported attendance is 30,000. I can't believe it. Unless they are counting free tickets some how dropped by a plane on the city of Milwaukee, I have no idea how they can arrive at such a total. There isn't enough no shows to make it work, not with low amounts of season ticket holders. If you are thinking no shows for BP dates, that might account for an extra thousand or 2. No, there is some very questionable accounting at work here. No way 2.5 million fans came here this year. None. No way 2 million fans walked in the park this year. The numbers were that inflated nightly. Now, this attendance thing really wouldn't make me upset on its own. Put that with the selling out of our best fans and season ticket holders to get the almighty $ from division rival and main blockage of the Brewers to the playoffs, the hated Cubs fans, and the blood pressure rises. I kick myself as well for not making more games, especially against the Cubs this season. I laugh when I read the Brewers thank you letter..... "When we are playing well, you are there to share in the excitement. When we need support, you are there to pick us up. When our backs are against the wall and everything is on the line, you rally behind us and remind us that no matter what happens -- whether we achieve our ultimate goal or whether we suffer heartbreak -- we are in this thing together." This is a load of crap. We didn't come in droves like we did in 2007, 2008, 2009, and 2011, selling out week night games. We doubted the team's ability more than anything. Even our owner talked about not getting caught up in wins/losses this pre-season. When the season was on the line, at home, we filled it with Cubs fans. I believe we are a good fan base, but definitely not great. Not this season. A great fan base gets the team in the playoffs this season. A better baseball town gets them in this season. Better, more loyal fans gets them in this season, and I'm including myself in all this too. One stinkin game out of the playoffs. One more earlier move by Stearns at the break rather than in late August gets them in. A couple hundred less at bats from Villar gets them in. Stopping Garza from pitching the last month, especially his last two games started, gets them in. Braun being Braun gets them in. Bitter and upset. The season still stings.