regardless whether the brewers make the playoffs at this point or not, they have put the fans through the wringer by not putting the division away in july and hanging on just enough the rest of the way. i'm a huge fan, i consider myself a die hard, but i'm near exhaustion from all of the suspect decisions and lack of clutch performances. that said, i was thinking today, which would make me happier - if the brewers had choked outright by the end of august/beginning of september and saved us the grief, or if they hung around as they have only to fall painfully short? on the one hand i'd be disappointed but could be fairly content to chalk it up to such cliches as having been "a good run" but the decline was inevitable for "a tired young team" and be excited about watching young guys get plenty of playing time the rest of the way in low pressure situations. on the other hand, i get to be excited about a real-deal playoff run but have to agonize over every single questionable - if not outright poor - coaching decision, every player left on base in one-run games, every baserunner allowed by our clown car of a bullpen, and in general go through a vicious 24-hour cycle of something like the following: 1) watch the game (with one eye on the cubs score) 2) check the standings after the game, win or lose 3) critique play, coaching 4) furrow brow, rub eyes 5) scrutinize what can be done to get over the hump until i go to bed (to be continued when i wake up) 6) check the next days probable starters 7) furrow brow, sigh; get another beer out of the fridge 8) rescrutinze; joke about/lament the cubs 9) go to bed, repeat steps 4-6 and 8 from morning coffee until an hour before opening pitch i'm a young buck, and despite my fatigue, i have to say i'll take the rollercoaster and playoff run. in closing, please make note that i have not written them off yet, but this is a what if topic that may be more applicable in a couple days. obviously i want them to make the playoffs. where do other people stand on this?