I'd make some grand statement about "giving up" on the team, or about how my worst fears have been realized, or about how I can't believe this is happening... but none of it would be sincere. The reality is that I pretty much stopped watching, both by choice and because of real-life intervention, right around the start of September. I haven't been around to see Chris Young or Brandon Phillips or Eric Gagne or Salomon Torres or The Sweep. I chuckled when I heard Zambrano had a no-hitter in the fifth inning last night, if only because it meant whoever let those obnoxious blowhards in "my" stadium were going to pay for it in karma, just like we all did with that four-game sweep. So I say the only thing I can say to protect myself from another amazing disappointment. Go Packers. As upset as I was with the NFC Championship Game last January, my honest feeling is that the Packers don't let me down like the Brewers do. It's one thing to pick a really bad day to just not get the job done, but it's a completely different animal to melt down as historically as the Brewers are right now, one year after melting down less emphatically but in a similarly-damaging manner. I've asked and even at times begged for a coaching change, and I get Dale Sveum off the bench and into a position where he can actually make a real impact on a game with bad decisions. Shockingly, that exact scenario plays itself out every now and then. Just the change I wanted. Meanwhile, the hitters continue to make the same bad swings at the same bad pitches that they were making last year. The manager continues to make unconscionable moves and defend them with a three-year-old's logic. The players are pressing, probably playing hurt, and simply not getting the job done. It's a meltdown of epic proportions, and I guess I'm a bad fan, because I'm more than willing to turn away. In fact, I already have. I certainly am used to a sports fan's suffering. I've been a Brewer fan since the early 1980s, when I didn't even have the means to follow the team on a daily basis. But the last two years have stung. Hard. It's bad enough that we're not as good as the stupid Cubs, but to have it be so crystal clear that we're at least in part being held back by the manager and his largely incompetent staff just hurts even more. We make the big trade, and the pitcher we got hasn't lost, and yet we can't win anymore. How the hell does that work? The home-grown pitcher in a contract year who's always hurt has been healthy and can't pitch. The bullpen we threw money at still sucks. Our best hitter is either hurt or slumping terribly, and our other best hitter is just another fat guy now. Meanwhile, my two favorite seasons - football and hockey - have either started or are about to. Hard to compete with that.