I wish I could combine all of these posts into a giant ball of complicated feelings. Part of me wants to take Hader at face value and really believe this was a stupid mistake that doesn't represent who he is now, and that part feels, well, not quite bad for him but ashamed and apologetic for him. Sad that a whole bunch of people will turn him into a joke forever because that is how the internet works, and nothing he can ever do will be good enough for them, and he'll always be morally bankrupt. Part of me hates that aspect of this, the twitter culture that washes away all nuance and all thought beyond the reflexive. Another part is angry and embittered. I want this team we attach ourselves to so deeply to be more than just a fun baseball team. I want it to be aligned with values I can support, and I do not want to make the Aroldis Chapman move, on field results be damned. This part thinks Josh deserves whatever he gets and even hopes it is a suspension, even one beyond a symbolic one or two day one that would occur when he wasn't available anyway because 17 or not, there is no excuse for a lot of the things he said. There's the part that worries about the on-field impact of this too and then feels bad about it. Because, as someone put it in the ASG thread, caring about baseball games more than their larger social significance is disturbing. The most important part, though, maybe and to me, is the part that wants Josh and the team to deal with this head-on and not content themselves with boilerplate, PR responses like "I was a child" and "It was 7 years ago." This part thinks sports lag behind other areas of society in the prevalence of misogynist and homophobic attitudes and hopes the Brewers and Josh speak out about this. When I was a freshman in college, the first speaker we heard was former NFL and Syracuse QB Don McPherson. I vividly remember him speaking to our all-male audience about the prevalence of "calling a man out" by using a gay slur or referencing female anatomy. I remember him talking about how destructive this language could be and how much language creates culture and attitudes. He was right. And Josh was/is a part of creating that culture and maybe also a victim of it in the sense that someone made him feel like those tweets were okay, and that's more than just a personal failure. This part of me hopes, really hopes, that Josh becomes another Don McPherson and fans take some time to reflect on why so many male athletes make these kinds of social media statements as young people. Because sometimes the best change comes about because of those who screwed up publicly and from our own willingness to recognize that we said these things too, maybe in a closed locker room, but still. And isn't that just as bad? Worse, maybe? This part of me flashes back to comments I made without thinking, and the power of words means they weren't consequence-free. You're right, Josh. No excuses. Don't make any. Be honest and process this and talk about why you said this stuff. As another poster said, open your account back up and go through one by one if you have to. It will make people angry. But it's the right thing to do if you have changed. Run from what these tweets represent, but don't run from why you said them, what it meant, and how you impacted yourself and others by putting them out there. Maybe that is asking too much from a pro athlete, but I hope not.