I wanted to make sure people didn't gloss over your comments. I commend you on being brave enough to admit your struggles publicly. I've had plenty of my own battles with mental health, as my life the last 10 years has been hell. One thing that has been a big component of my mental health has been outdoor exercise, and learning to enjoy it year-round. (Yes, even during the winter.) It's a great way to disconnect. Usually it's going for a run, but sometimes a walk, put some music I enjoy in my ear (I recommend bone-induction headphones, so your ears are free to listen to your surroundings), and just disconnect. I don't know how in-shape you are, maybe it's starting with walking, but now is a great time to find some outdoor trails near you, maybe a big park, and get out of the house and disconnect. Getting out of the house is half the battle - much easier to disconnect when you're in different surroundings. And listen to music - not podcasts, not talk radio, not books - music that you enjoy, as music helps you disconnect too because you don't have to pay attention to it. Observe nature (I saw a black squirrel yesterday morning - it's a genetic mutation, only about 1 in 10,000 squirrels are black), and appreciate its beauty. It takes 21 days to form a habit. Try getting out of the house for a walk or run, even if just for 15 minutes, every day for the next 21 days. Build that habit, see if you enjoy it, and stay positive.