Adam, when I was 35 (back in 2010), (relatively young, I suppose), my dad died in February, my mom died in June, then my father in law died in August. I can say for sure that I understand the 'suddenly orphaned' feeling that you're going through. Can I tell you how to cope with it? Not so much. Just like any kind of grieving, this is something I think every person has to figure out for themselves. I wish I could say "step A, step B, step C", but what works for one person, isn't going to necessarily work for another person. I didn't get along very well with my dad, but we mended our fences before his passing, and I'm glad we did. I still miss and think about my mom every single day. Heck, there's still an occasion every now and then where something that I think she'd laugh at or chuckle at will happen, and I'll think to call her and be like "oh........yeah". I wish this post could be more help, but it's just one of those things..........it sucks. There's no other way to put it. Losing the people we care about sucks. You think 'if only.......', but there's just, ya know, there's no take-backs. For me, talking about my mom, and to some extent my dad, it's melancholy, but it keeps their memory alive for me. For my oldest brother, he's the "I don't want to talk about it" type. He copes by not talking about things. Like I said, there's no one right answer you're going to get. If 30 people post in this thread, you'll get 30 different answers. I think you'll find your own way. I guess the biggest thing I can offer is if you want to talk about your parents, don't hesitate to find people who are willing to listen.