i so much want to be a 'yeah Brewers' guy right now. desperately. it's just i don't see what they've done since April to make me want to say that. it just feels like now, when they have some stupid loss, it's expected, and a win feels so out of the ordinary. i have a Mets-fan coworker and yesterday i didn't even feel like taunting him, but only said that it was a great game all around. how lame is that? deep down i feel like i shouldn't say anything because i'm waiting for us to lose the next two games and drop the series. then there we go, we lose the second game. i'm tired of this; winning just isn't expected from me anymore, it's more like a surprise. i used to be anxious to see a box score and how the players did, but now i fall in a funk even before i open it up. time to wake up, guys!